Give it a go..

I’m gonna try to stop complaining. I’m fed up of wallowing in self-pity. I’ve got no reason to be like that. My life is pretty perfect. Sure, there are things I’d change & things I’d like to happen that don’t seem likely but, on the whole, things are pretty good.
It’s easy to look at someone else’s life as an outsider & wish you were them, but the thing is you don’t know what’s really going on in that person’s life. On the outside things may seem perfect however scratch the surface and I’m convinced you’ll be surprised.
From now on I’m just going to enjoy myself. I don’t want to look back on these years and regret them. Sometimes you lose sight of what’s really important and what’s really in front of you. All you have to do is open your eyes, at the end of the day this is the life you’ve been given & you have to make everyday count.
Right now I’m happy. Really happy. And I have my brilliant family & amazing friends to thank for that.
I love you x

That November

I still can’t quite believe you’ve gone. You were taken way, way too early in the most unfair way. Thank you for making us realise how fragile life is and that we must live it while we still can instead of just letting it pass us by. I won’t let the bad overshadow the good, and I won’t be afraid of my feelings. I hope that wherever you are you’re okay and I’ll see you soon. That I’m sure of. Until then please keep an eye on us, especially B x

Recently I've been thinking, often we don't realise exactly what's in front of us.
Someone once said: As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things we think will make our life better: money, popularity, fame... we ignore what truly matters... the simple things, like friendship, family, love. The things we probably already had.
I heard that quote the other day, and I was drawn to it's truthfullness. Sometimes I think we need to just sit down and take a minute to be thankful for what we have. We are often too quick to complain about how badly life's treating us right now, or how depressed we are, but I implore you to close your eyes and think. We say those things, but I honestly don't think we know their true meaning. As a nation, on the whole, we are the lucky ones. We aren't in the Third World, we have access to clean water and a health service, we aren't living in extreme poverty, most of us don't have to worry about where our next meal is coming from... Just take a moment to think. Is your life really THAT bad?
I believe that when life's getting you down, you mustn't let the bad overshadow the great. Look for the good things, it might take you a while to realise what they are but when you do, you'll come to see that they are the most important things. Things that quite often are so simple and taken for granted but are what truly matter.

Spring.



Love Me Then Leave Me.

We’re walking in the sand,
And you are holding my hand.
Your eyes are sparkling like the sea.
And I just see you and me ♥

-Laura Marling

Light & Shade.

I could fall at any moment. And who'd be there to catch me?
I feel like I'm suffocating, I just want to scream out to the world. There's a pain burning inside of me. I'd like nothing more than to just break down and cry, but I can't. I have to keep it together. I have to be strong.
Life can be so unfair, but what does whining about it achieve? Nothing. That's what. What right do I have to complain? I'm still here, you're not. You were taken from us before your time, but now you live through us. It's up to us to keep your fire burning and to find the light in the darkest of situations.

Escape.

My escape. It's so close now. It's in my grasp, I can almost taste it, it fills my heart with warmth and invades my thoughts until I find it hard to concentrate on anything else. It keeps me up at night, I lie there in the dark fantasizing about it. I find it hard to drift off now if I haven't thought about it.
I think it's imperative that I get out soon. This place is suffocating me. Day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year. One of the things that keeps me alive is the knowledge that one day soon I'll be gone. Out of this place. Away from these people. Living the life I should be.